stress is finally catching up with me.

 

Im starting to get a sore thorat and just feel like I wanna cry...and sleep. and cry some more.

 

I just need the weekend. thats all I need.

 

hopefully it will be a stress-free weekend. relaxing. sunny and fun.

 

*sigh*

 

my brother found out he is having a girl. (if it is his...)

 

I think thats why I am kinda sad. I really wanna cry...because I wanted to have a baby first. I wanted to have a girl first mostly.

 

They are going to name her Gracey Pearl.

 

again. ugly first name...but Pearl was mine. thats my nanas name and was going to be one of my kids middle names. *sad*

 

but its something I cant look down on. because I may never be able to have a child (it is one of my deep deep fears...:( ) and atleast I can have a niece. oh man, that sends chills down me to say that..

 

niece.

my baby brother having a little girl.

 

wow. only if I cared for Ashely. but I dont. she is probably the only person I cant stand in this whole world.

 

but whatever. I hope I start feeling better...and not get sick like last time. pllllease lord, dont let me get sick!!

 

going to Jax tonight to help Josh deliver a car. I really dont wanna but I have too. :P