I did wanna share my dream last night.

 

It was so real yet of course its not!

 

Anyways,

 

I dreamt that Josh and I were on an airplane flying somewhere. He leaves for a couple hours and comes back and says nothing to me as I am talking to him nonstop.

 

We get to where ever we were going and enter into this house. Its an older house and I start looking around.

Time must be going by fast because I see myself working as a teacher and seeing this child that looks like Josh.

The little boy or girl looks about 2 years old and runs to me and hugs me. I meet its Mom and we start talking in a coffee shop. She tells me about how she has a secert finance' and actually lives in the house with him and his "girlfriend"

 

I get back home and tell Josh about my converstation and then he confesses that the woman is his fiance' and the child is his.

He continues to tell me that he had an affair on the airplane when we were flying here.

He then tells me that he propose to her a week after he proposed to me and is in love with her more than me.

 

I start running through this house, crying and screaming.

I pushed this door open and find a living quarter.

 

I start looking through pictures of Josh, this female and child.

I start destroying everything.

 

Ripping pictures, throwing things off dressers and outta closets.

 

I collopse on the floor and hear the child come running in.

Josh tells me "get up. You have no right to be in here"

 

and I get up and walk away.

 

while walking away I ask "We are done. After 5 years?"

 

and I wake up.

 

It was weird & I wonder what could it mean?

 

Am I having trust issues? Am I thinking since we have had a slight strain on our relationship that it could be ending?

 

It was really weird. I almost wanted to cry when I awoke.